staying up
After a long weekend, I need to really focus on my projects. I’m really having a lot of fun (no, not really) trying to do the balancing act of making cross-browser compliant CSS for the Kuma redesign. The site is beautiful, but a supreme pain in the ass getting the CSS classes to behave across two different OS’s and 4 different browsers (IE, FF, Opera, and Safari).
Me and my kids had a great day together yesterday, we woke up and met my friend Chris, his daughter Dana, and his golden, Shamus at Freedom Park for some playground time (and jump in the mud time too), got some lunch, Viv took a nap, me and Van played Tonka trucks outside, rode bikes together, saw my friends Larry and Sharon while filling up the minivan with gas, got crickets for Wugga Bugga Nick (his bearded dragon), stopped saw my buddy Bill (and Rusty too) for a few minutes on the way home, played more with the Tonka trucks, read a whole bunch of stories, and put him to bed. I worked on the CSS stuff, made some updates to blogitron, and then put myself to bed.
Speaking of falling asleep, that has become difficult again. I find myself tossing and turning at night with this impending sense of doom. The divorce is going to happen, I can’t show up at my wife’s house with a boombox over my head blaring Peter Gabriel to fix things. I can’t stop it from happening. It sucks. I need to steer clear of the whirlpool of self-loathing and focus on my kids – things will be OK.
“Ultimately, man should not ask what the meaning of his life is, but rather must recognize that it is he who is asked. In a word, each man is questioned by life; and he can only answer to life by answering for his own life; to life he can only respond by being responsible.”
Victor Frankl, Man’s Search for Meaning
November 27th, 2006 at 12:59 pm
Trying to get CSS designs working properly in the 4 browsers is guaranteed to give you headaches. IE is the bane of my existence when it comes to that stuff. Although on more than one occassion, I’ve struggled with situations where some things working in Firefox but not Opera or vice versa, and fixing one breaks the other.
I’m glad you had a good weekend with the kids. I take it you got your bike — how’s that working out? What kind is it?
I sometimes take Melatonin when I am having trouble sleeping. It’s a naturally-occurring thing in your body, and is sold as a dietary supplement over the counter. The only downside for me is that sometimes, it does make waking up harder. But I refuse to take actual sleep medicine, especially on any kind of regular basis, and this isn’t that. Worth looking into. It’s also very mild.
I wish I knew what to tell you about the divorce, all I can think to say is to make sure you’re looking out for yourself. Focus on the kids, definitely, but make sure you aren’t getting screwed over in the process, too.
November 27th, 2006 at 4:52 pm
It’s OK to look out for yourself once in a while. One thing I’ve discovered in life — we are all a hell of a lot stronger than we realize. Hang in there, and don’t forget — it’s OK to look out for yourself once in a while.
Oh, and don’t listen to Michael about Opera. I had never heard of the thing let alone met anyone who used it before I met him. Opera is, and should be, a fat lady singing things shrilly in languages I can’t understand and don’t appreciate. Also, if you don’t use a legitimate browser you shouldn’t be catered to.
November 28th, 2006 at 6:27 am
Are you sure that isn’t from watching the Eagles Sunday night?
I can feel your pain. Never an easy task to accomplish. I wish I could just say “Ignore IE b/c it sucks…” but we all know that isn’t an option – and it does suck less recently.
November 28th, 2006 at 8:19 am
Thanks for stopping by, Van. I’m bloggrolling you. I love your music and I really feel for your situation. I did that many many years ago. We all are better people for it. You need to roll through this. Let it take you where it will. You have enough positive energy to see you through to a better place.