hunker down
I’m really having a tough time lately, not sleeping and in constant worry. Whether it’s been choice, de facto, or whatever, I’m in a spot that isn’t good at all. I need to take notice of the good stuff around me, wait for the situation to improve, and do what I can to make it better on my own.
While reading Nietzsche… yes, I’m just that immature that I would take a screen shot with my iPhone of a chapter called…
I got the kids to sleep last night and came back to the living room to find Abbe had put on all of Viv’s Easter toy jewelry… she deserves to come over and see me happy, not like I’ve been…
Here’s another perfect score from Bub’s, this time on a math test… Bubs and Viv are doing so damn well, they deserve to not have a thundercloud for a Dad…
And another one too…
- Comcastrophe – thanks Chris
- Free Music Archive – thanks Chris
- Man Builds Chair That Tweets His Farts – thanks Chris
- Goodbye Harry – last Phillies hit Harry called was the game winning homerun by Matt Stairs on Sunday against the Rockies, so glad he got to call a Phil’s WS win. Game just won’t sound the same.
- SpreadTweet – thanks Ryan
April 14th, 2009 at 9:55 am
Don’t beat yourself up for feeling down. Sometimes our circumstances, no matter what they are, are more than we can handle.
Hoping peace seeps under the door of the House of FuriousBall, or arrives wearing a tiara like Abbe.
XO
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April 14th, 2009 at 10:45 am
You have your kids close to you again!!! I hope that’s helping you be in a better place than you would be otherwise. But beyond that – I’m muy meh and not a happy little sunbeam for Jeebus myself, so…
April 14th, 2009 at 12:01 pm
You are doing the best you can…and I think that is pretty good. You can only feel what you feel and make the best of it. I hope things seem happier for you soon!
Abbe looks adorable in that jewelry. I love it!
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April 14th, 2009 at 12:20 pm
I must agree with V-grrrl: life can pull one in many unexpected directions, playing tricks with our emotions and desires.
Nietzsche on an iPhone shot: I had to look twice, but yes, there he was. Probably the first iPhone shot featuring Thus Spake Zarathustra: A Book For All And None.
Abbe profoundly cares for you – she may have tried to put a smile on your face.
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April 14th, 2009 at 2:07 pm
It looks like you have a lot of positive to enjoy – just sometimes it gets hard to see.
But when are you going to put on the bling?
April 14th, 2009 at 3:49 pm
yay! an awesome abbe, two great kids finally home with you. you do have a lot going well. like another commenter said, don’t beat yourself up. identify the issue, give yourself permission to feel and figure out how to move out of it.
is it possible that after such a rough year when you had no choice but to continue slogging forth through the worst life threw at you, now that things are going well you can finally relax and feel the full weight of the hardships? in other words, things are going well so it’s safe to feel the yucky feelings left over from other stuff? the “great in a crisis mode but crash when the danger is past” thing. just a thought.
April 14th, 2009 at 5:46 pm
It’s hard to be happy, even with all these good reasons to be.
Maybe just ride it through. Or at least get some pills so you can sleep.
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April 16th, 2009 at 1:35 pm
Dude. I so wish I could hand fart a song for you. Feel better xo
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